Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Jon KianAnn Kira LiBing
Nicholas PeiYi Priscilla QiuPing
Shermen SiewLan Wendy WenJun

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Wednesday, February 15, 2012

What should I said?
Totally moody...
Received my result the day before...
Guess what?I failed my exam...
Which I cant accept it...Accept the fact the I failed my exam...
Actually a few weeks ago...I already had a bad feeling that I will failed...
But I did not expect that I failed so badly...
Hid myself in toilet for 3hrs just to do my crying
It's the first that that I hid myself so long in the toilet...
Aunt was worry but at the same time she also feel the pain
Coz she saw the way that I forced myself to study for the paper...
I do admit that I'm very slack during that period
I should mi MIA since end of Oct 2011...
But I still can go out with my friends to have fun,drink till midnight then I go home,clubbing,Taiwan and Singing
All these thing I should not be doing during my exam period...
Yet I still do it...

Hence, the result that I got is actually what I deserved...
But who can understand the pain in my heart
I 'm a student that use to get A's for my papers
And now it drop to F...

It is the similar thing that happened in Sec 5
I promised that I will not let it happen..
Yet I broke the promise myself
In the end I lost everything
I was not good in both relationship and studies
Should I give up?

I already decided to give up relationship
Honestly the problems lies on mi~!
I just cant get through my mind...
To mi guys are not mend to be trusted...
In the past, I still believe at least buddy can trust...
But too bad,one person had proved it to mi...
All guys are the same(except father,aj and brothers), only one word that can describe them
That is "BASTARD"
I had suffered enough hurt and I don wish to feel the same pain again
U can said that I'm a coward
Indeed, I am!
But I had decided to give up u!
I'm firm and set!

Right now
I just want to concentrate in my study and future career
This friendship that I had with a big group...had proven to mi that it cannot be last
The friendship that I always wanted to have was care,concern and advise
But I did not received any from this group except care from some of them

Anyway thanks sisters are always there for mi when I need u
U gals are the best
Especially Ling,U are the best
Maybe because that we had knew each other very long
But u always are there for mi to give mi care,concern,advise,scolding and courage
This is called "friendship"

Sunday, February 12, 2012

I don know since when I start to have this feeling
A feeling that I had lost for entire 4-5years
But until recently the feeling was very strong
Strong till I don wish to go on...and decided to build a wall in my heart
I still remember the first movie that we watch tgt with others
If I'm not wrong...It was "11 11 11"
And the first movie that we watched with each other was
"We are not naughty"
And it was at 1st day of Chinese New Year

Even since sis sense something is wrong and inform mi
I still to asked myself these:
"Am I truly love/like you"
"Is it just a crush"
But till now I don get an answer...

Sometime I do sense something in you
The way you reacted give mi a feeling that you like mi
BUT I'm scared it's just a illusion or you gave mi a wrong info
Just like TianHuar and Sam
Tianhuar is the first deep that I loved him deeply
And the 1st guy that I nv live in regret coz I told him all my feeling
But that's the past!
And now it's still a question in my heart
A question that relates to both you and mi

I always try to fix my time out whenever you ask mi out at last min
For you only: I did not get angry easily when u ask mi out last min as you know I hate last mins meeting

Ytd was the first time I throw tamper at you
But I did it on purposely coz I want to test you
Ignoring you at KBOX was my fault...But was part of my plan
Keep on repeating the same thing was also part of my plan too
I know after you know this you might not ask mi out again
But I just don want to hid it from you....
Honestly specking...I felt it something when I told you i change my mind
But I just kept quiet...
Letting u know that Eric was wooing mi...it's also part of my plan
Coz I want to see your reaction...
Telling you that I know who's wooing mi coz of my sensitive was to hint you
But my sixth sense told mi that is I 自作多情。。。
When I told you that I want to watch "Underworld"
You told mi to ask others out...I was very disappointed
Plus one thing that I don't like was to organize activity
So I told you to organize....
I saw you tweet in twitter...and was waiting for your whatsapp...
But there's no notice...
I was sad! But compare to the sadness that I had 5years ago...It was nothing!

Please do understand what I had did
A gal that had been hurt by 2guys and one of the guy was 4 years long was not easily believe in guy...
From what had happened ytd
The result was I 自作多情。。。
If you truly like mi...Pls let mi know as I will be waiting
But for your info...sometime I will reject you if you ask mi out
Coz it's the only way to protect mi from having the same pain again...

Sunday, February 5, 2012

It's been such a long time that I nv update my blog
Hais
I've been busy with both work,study and problems
:(

First thing first...I had quite my Cathay job and join Kbox
At least is a part time job that I wanted very long time ago
Next...It's the year of dragon
Which means new year and new start and new beginning
^^
I hope that this year is a gd year for my family,my friends and mi
:)