Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Friday, December 30, 2011

All u know was how to control mi
But so u know the feeling of being control?
I know that I had disappoint you...But when are u keep on mentioning those things
The control that u gave is above my limit
A limit that I cant take it
Can you be more reasonable a bit
I know the feeling u having now...that's the reason why I don want to let u know in first place
First u force mi to quit Kbox, a job that I really loved a lot
But I cant just tell them I want to quit now...
I just join them less than 2 months...And u want mi to tell them I want to quit
It's impossible! Why cant u spare a thought for others as well

And what's now?
Just a simple dinner with my sisters at CWP
U still don let mi go?
I'm 20 this yrs...I'm not a 3 yrs old kid
What I need was a personal space with my friends
And why u cant give mi that?
All u know was to control control control
Then how about mi?
I want freedom!
Just a simple freedom...U cant give mi?

The way u control mi will just forcing mi to dead end u know?
If it's really continue throughout a yrs...
I will just simply find my grandparents and leave everything a side....

Monday, December 26, 2011

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Finally my exam is over!
I'm so happy:)
Spending months and weeks to study...I really hope I can do well...
After Exam meet up with Selene and had a bit of chitchat...
What make mi think that iit's funny because
the first that Selene saw mi was to ask mi "why happen to my eyes"
Hahahas
Don be misunderstood by what Selene sae
Coz she referring to my dark eyes circle
Hahahas
So Now I'm going to do my facial treatment at home:)

But a few min I really doubt myself
I feel happy?Am I really have that feeling?
After know the way my buddy think of mi...I felt so disappointed
We have been buddy so many years and he thinks that I'm so called a unreasonable person?
WTH!
U can just tell mi that u have went for movie...
No need to lie to mi...and the reason behind was u thinks that
I'm a unreasonable person that don not know the limit of joking?
WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And when I ask u...U just tell mi that u want to save...
I hate people lying to mi...and the worse thing is from our people mouth den I know
It's like I'm a idiot that was being fool by people！
I think u don even know that I knew everything and was angry with u...
If in the first place U don even trust mi and think that I'm those kind of people...
Why in the first place be buddy with mi....
And I tolerate all the attitude u given to mi and this is what I get
"A UNREASONABLE PERSON"
Fine!

From now on...
I will not care abt u anymore!

Monday, December 12, 2011

心情好浮渣
后天就是考试了，压力好大
可是脑海里浮现的印象不止是我所读的东西，还有这几天发生的事
令我心情超不好的
我甚至问我自己这个问题：
“我所谓的兄弟到底是什么？”

你大可可以告诉我你已经看了这部电影
可是为什么要骗我说你要省钱，所以不想看。。。
我问我自己，是不是我做错了什么。。。
为什么总感觉我周围的朋友都在避开我。。。
还是我是注定要一个人。。。？
我并不知道。。。
是我疑心病重，还是我多想了。。。
我现在能真正的体会到姐妹们的感受了。。。
被多年的朋友篇，原来是多么的痛与难受。。。
还是因为小时候作太多坏的事，所以现在受到惩罚？
我不知道。。。
我只知道我好难受，暂时不想和你讲话。。。


为什么老是觉得从小到达没有人喜欢过我？
小时候，有阿公和奶奶在，所以不会感到孤单与寂寞
当他们离开我的时候，我好像从天堂掉进地狱
好难接受他们不会永远在我身边陪伴我与支持我。。。让我觉得好辛苦
喜欢一个男人，可是他却不喜欢我
所有的朋友有讨厌我。。。
阿公和奶奶又离开我。。。
而我又不想让妈咪和阿姨知道我的伤心与痛苦

我是注定没有人要的女孩。。。
一个只能活在黑暗的世界里
没有月光的照射。。。一个人徘徊在黑黑的森林里
而我有那么怕寂寞，怕黑的人
我要怎样还能活下去能？

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Just feel like blogging
Exam is in 11days time
I'm so worried abt my exam
Been sick for almost a week
Flu,Fever,headache,dizzy,vomit,sore-throat...
All of them come and visit mi
Thanks to that...I was unable to eat a lot of things...

During my sick period...
My mind been flashing a lot of things&situations
How to said...
I've been asking myself a lot of things...
What kind of person I am...
Why do I exist in this world...
Why up till now I still do not have a bf yet my friends had
A person like mi...does it suit to have friends around mi
Why I need to suffer from enzyme...
Why my family end up like this
What kind of person I'm going to be in future...
And etc

Yet...I still unable to find an answers to it
All these questions have be in my heart for years...
Yet i still unable to find the answers
This shown that I'm a failure...
I once that there's the word "possible"
But till now...Should I believe that word?
I really don know..
Perhaps there is..but will not happen in my life...

In this period...
I actually see a lot of things
People might find that it's immature and childish
But I can see how family worried about mi
Yet I don have the dare to say it in front of them...

Another thing is I found that how immature I am
The moment I said out all my unhappiness about my friend
I actually saying the same thing to myself....
Coz I believe my friends also face the same things on mi too
But all this while I was too scared to admin
So what's the saying that...It will just create a crack in my friendship

Actually a person like mi
Don really deserve all the goods things
Like friends,family and everything
Why should I?

Is it because of all the mind set
that lead to mi have no bf?
I actually don dare to tell my mum how worse her daughter is...
Yet she still stress mi and hope that I will find a bf for myself...
Sometime I really doubt my own feeling?my own self？
Yet there's nothing I can do but to accept it...

No wonder a lot people said
人们最弱的时候是生病的时候
可是人最想得通的时候也是在生病的时候