Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Monday, November 28, 2011

All these while...I've been trying hard not to think of u
And I did it...
A lot of my friends asked mi a same question
"Did I ever ever regret of knowing you"
And my answer is "No"

Since the start...I was given a choice
whether to "love you" or "treat u as normal friend"
Yet I chose to love you
I did not regret that I got once love you before
Although it just a short 6 months...
But I was deeply in love with you
The feeling of "Love" and "Like" is different
I can tell from my actions

You are the one that taught mi a lot of things compare to other guys that I admire
But one thing that I regretted was I did not actually tell u my feeling towards you personally...
Right now it's not important anymore

After seeing you today at TS
I realize I had completely forget the feeling that I used to had towards you
I sincerely hope that the happiness between you and your gal will last forever and ever

Although we can't become a couple
But we can still become best friends
This is my regards to both of you

As for my own happiness...
I will let god decide....Just hope it will come and find mi soonnnnnnnnn

Friday, November 25, 2011

I'm stress for my exam
After the school exam that I took...I really regret of what I did in the past
Play non-stop,went to work and even watch show still cannot control
Hais...
After Sunday...I'm going to stay at home and woodlands areas...
I'm not going to town anymore until after my exam

Told this to mummy about my result
Thinking that she will scold mi...But I was wrong...
Instead of scolding mi...she actually encourage mi
Coz actually I did some reflection on it..
She was please that I had grown up a lot compare to Sec 5
Up to this time round...Then I know how much my mummy love mi
She just using indirect ways to love mi...
I really regretted what I did to her in the past
And I didn't expect myself that I will pour everything out to her

One thing that I was shock was...
All this while she know that I had been lying to her that I had bf before
And the only reason that she don't split it out was my character was so much similar to her when she was young...
That's the reason why she nv sae it out

And been asking mi when I going to have my first boyfriend
Hahas
Actually I also want to have my first boyfriend
But no one want mi...How am I going to have one...?
Sometime I really think does the problem lies on my attitude or character?
My expectation was not high...
I only want someone that is responsible and will love mi with all his heart
Care for mi and with mi when I need him
Most importantly is in his heart...family must always be the first
I don care whether he's handsome or what...
But most importantly is the heart...
If he's good looking yet he don treat his family well...
There's no point going on with him
To mi that my expectation...

But right now
All I care was my study...Coz I don want to regret
As for relationship...I leave it to god
Coz I myself also have doubts in my own feeling...
And I need to time to understand the feeling of love,like and crash...

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Here comes my update:)
Oh Yeah...Just return back from Taiwan
One word to describe Taiwan was awesome:)
Went to 西门町，五世谱，士林 and 淡水。。。
But still there's a lot of places that Ben intro I cant get to go:(
Hmmm...
Plus I cant get to buy a lot of thing on Sat night after what happened in 士林
But overall is great and excited trip:)
Hope to Taiwan again with my friends:)

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Exam coming in a month time
And see what I'm doing now?
Still can go Taiwan to enjoy,play with friends and whats' more
Movie with brother and cousin...

Honestly specking...
I really too slack le
By this time...I should have finish all the questions
Yet it have not been done yet!
What's more?Everything come at the same timing...
Sam ask mi a question that I cant answer...Family problem and even work problem
FUCK!!!
I also busy with my exam alr...and now all are waiting in a queue

It's true that I said that I had put him down le...
Bu sometime I still miss him...the time that we chit chat on the phone and talk to him when he's working...
Family problem had finally settle...but deep in my heart...I still worry for them...
I don even get the chance to talk or see them after what had happened recently
Work problem...is always a question marks...I don know what will happen next when I go work
But I know all friends had gone except mi...
Exam! It the big problem to mi...
I promised my parents that I will not waste there money again like what U did in Sec 5
So it's a must I must do welll...

But see what I done...
Play with friends,Taiwan trip and still can work
I really deserve a slap for myself to wake mi up!!!!
All these thing really make mi pissed off
Coz I don even know how to control myself from playing
I really hate myself...my current self...
Tamper out if control and I throw it on to my friends and aunt...
Addicted to playing,drinking and clubbing

This is not mi...my past mi
And see what I had done to myself
A person like mi shouldn't stay in this world...
But why I still alive?I should have passed away from the accident....
Right now...the only thing fro mi not to throw my tamper
was to keep away from my friends
It's the best thing for us...
So MIA during this period was a gd choice...

So friends...
It's the best time to stay away from mi during this period...Coz my tamper is out of control...

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

距离考试还有1个月的时间
可是我觉得我对不起妈咪和自己
这个时候，我因该把我自己关在家里读书
可是我却在这个时候和朋友出去玩。。。
以玩就玩到早上2点还到家
总觉得自己变得好坏，还讨厌现在的自己
以前的我会坚定自己的想法。。
可是为什么现在不行呢？
是不是压力太大了？
我不知道。。。我只知道我现在想把考试考好一点，然后彻彻底底地把他埋在我心里的最深处
对我来说。。。彻彻底底的放下他不是一件容易的是
因为当我爱上一个男人的时候，我不会容易的放开他
除非我真的能够亲眼看见他的幸福的样子，那我还会放手
现在的我，是不会爱上任何一个人。。。
因为我真的觉得累了。。。
Plus我现在没有时间来想这些事情
哈哈

现在我只期望我不会胡思乱想
因为我有时候，我真的好想他！！！