Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Monday, October 31, 2011

Had a mixed feeling
Something happened on Sat which I feel so lost and uncomfort
So decided to write it here
Coz I know that no one will visit my blog

As usual went to work on Sat
Worked from 11pm to 1opm
When I reached there...den I noticed that they having an event
So at first I though that Micheal was not working
But in the end...he's working from 12 onwards
Really don feel like seeing him after quarreled with him...
But no choice coz he's the manager there...
As usual they wanted mi to open movie express
But the time I finished opening...is alr 12plus...
So when I trying to unlock fridge...I noticed that Micheal is standing behind mi
And the distance is within 1-2cm away
I really don know how long he had been standing behind mi...
But I'm really very scared...coz I had been hearing sth of what he did to girl crews
And it happened on mi the first time
All this while...I'm been telling myself that...
I'm not pretty and I'm ugly...So he will not do anything to mi
But I was wrong...
Now he standing behind mi secretly...how abt next time?
After which...he spot check my poach...
And one of the poach...he wanted to check but I threaten by saying if he check...I called Police...

When come to around 9plus...
Received a call from Sam...Asking mi to help him with his tickets
And he came and find mi
When I saw him...I really wanted to cry not because I saw his girlfriend
But is what happened on the afternoon...Wanted to pour out to him
But I didn't...he did noticed my eyes were red...so I finding excuses to cover myself
When for dinner tgt:)
After that dinner...I decided to let go
Coz I can see how lovely they were:)

The next day...
I told what had happened on mi at Cathay to buddy
He dont even make any respond to it
So I change topic...I felt disappointed on him
We had been buddy for 3-4 yrs and he's don seem to care
When he need care...I was there...
WTF!!!!

Then just now...
after my class...meet up with SL to go hm together
Den she noticed that I did not get any sleep
Somehow we chat till the Cathay's topic
and I eventually broke down in MRT
Told her everything...Thanks sis for being there for mi
But up till now...I still feel scared...
I thinking should I told this to Eunice?
Coz she knows the whole story...

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Another update again:)
Wanted to update abt Sat:)

Finally I get the chance to enter Powerhouse:)
I waited for 3yrs and I finally fulfill it
Hahahas
More surprise is I enter PH with a group of almost 20people
Thanks to Steve...my first clubbing life was memorable
Coz I nv expect that there are a lot of people...
Hahas
First ...I went to Jurong point with my aunt
Coz my brother treat us SuShi for Lunch...
It's the first time that my bro actually use his own money to treat us
Next...Met up with Eunice at Bukit Gombak
Hahas...
Went to salon to rebond my fringe and make my hair
While Eunice is planning for her new haircut:)

Then I headed to Orchards to meet up with WJ and SL
Before I meet up with them
Headed to Cathay to see roaster and understand some situation
Now den I realize that almost all my friends alr left except mi
:(
Afterwhich headed to Herren to have dinner and Cab to Vivo to meet up with others
I was so excited due to m V club:)
We chop in first and went back to Vivo
Coz we wanted to drink high first before heading in again

Bought 2bottles of mixers,2bottles of Vocak and 1 bottle of Wisk
Hahas
We drank high outside the Vivo
While we on the way to PH...
The guys actually had a hard time coz all the gals sei liao
including mi ...
I high till uncontrollable...
I laugh nonstop,cant even walk straight and even wanted to drink more
But I know that I was not drunk...coz I know what I'm doing
Hahahas....

Conclusion is I was having a fun and excited day at Vivo and PH

After my first clubbing...
I actually able to understand what ling's feeling
She was right...going club actually can make yourself feel super relax
I think maybe because of Cathay...
That's why I feel so stress up...
But when u high and sei...U will surly feel like dancing at dance floor
I don know whether I got dance at dance floor or not
But I know that after I high...I felt super relax

Thanks guys for taking care of mi at PH and given mi memorable day
Sorry to give u guys a hard time
Really had a fun and enjoyable day on Sat
I wonder when is my next clubbing day?
Just hope that it will be after my exam...
Den I no need o wait till 21 le:)
Hahahahahahas

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Exam coming liao
Stress level is getting higher and higher
Towards my exam...I only left less than 2months
Up till now...I realized that I had spent too much time on work and playing
:(
Is this what happen when comes to study and work at the same time?
I had already forgotten what is called "Time Management" and "Finance Management"
I used have these locked in my mind...but not this period...
Tons of assignments are waiting for mi to accomplished...
Hais...
Towards 1st Nov...I only left 11days...
After this 11days...
Time management is what I'm going to have...
No more playing except the catch up with AJ and my Taiwan Trip!!!
No more beers or wine for mi after the coming Sat

I'm gonna to put a stop to all these stuffs
and start all over again...to the time that I had left Cathay the first time
I'm going to change myself to a different person that no one know before...
A better person with a better tamper,less selfishness and better 性格
No more relaying on others...NO MORE!!!!
Just like that time...all alone by myself...
I know just sae mean nothing...
But prove it by ACTIONS!

I know is difficult for mi to do that
Coz I had been using this "kind" of 性格 for so long...
It's time for mi to change!

Had a heart to heart talk with mummy and aunt
And they eventually wanted help mi to change:)
Aunt actually sae that she will help mi by scolding mi whenever she saw it at home...
No more screaming at my family members especially my mummy and aunt
只要有决心，就不要放弃
I think they also wanted mi to change into a better person...

I just don want to my friends to feel disappointed
I believe if one day I really success to do that...
Ah Gong and Mama will feel happy for mi
I just don want to let my aunt and mum worry abt mi anymore
20 yrs old liao...I don want them to see mi as a 3 yrs old kid
Thanks for being there by my side
Buddy,sis,aunt and mummy
Thanks for accepting what I am now...
I going to change to a better person...

Sunday, October 16, 2011

What happened to mi?
Recently had been drinking so much
So much that I cant imagine
The only think I know was I was super annoying with my mind
My mind is full of rubbishes!!!
Thinking those that was not related to my study
But the fun thing was I will get to hang out with my group of crazy friends on every Saturday
Last Sat they went PH and I wait for them outside
This time round...they went to rebal and I wait for them in a shop
And the good thing is I can get to go clubbing le
BUT is with the accompany from my cousins
Hope they don mind...

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Another update to my memories

Just return back home
Went out to K with Selene,WenJun and Steve:)
Had a very high moment with them at the last hour:)
An unexpected result from Steve and Selene
I though she will had a hard time to join in the group
Yet after a couple song sang by wenjun and mi...
They start to sing all the couple songs:)
They reslly gave mi a shock!!!:)
Hahas

After the K...we went to Mache for our dinner:)
Another Mache dinner...more worse...we order the same foods that we had ordered the first time
Had chit chat time and we head to Vivo:)
Coz WenJun meeting Branda to go powerhouse
So Steve and Selene are going too except mi can't go
Coz got no IC and aunt only allow mi to enter that plac when I reach 21
But they accompany mi to drink at Vivo Skygarden:)
ZhiHao join in the fun too:)
We play Blackjack while we drinking...
And I was extreme high:)
But god neve give mi exta time to get more high
After the first round of the game...we goes on to second round
A few minutes of our second round...the wind was strong and it started to rain
So no choice but to stop the game ...
They accompany mi to take cab before they go powerhouse...
But thanks to the stupid exit...we wasted half an hour
LOLS

In the cab..I feel terrible....
Seeing them all go Powerhouse to have fun...
But only mi need to go home
In fact the whole group was going except mi:(
Cried in cab and at toilet:'(
The feeling was so so so terrible
How I wish I get caught in the rain for an hour...
Then the rain will able to cover my tears:(

Anyway thanks guys for the fun night that u all had given mi:)

Sunday, October 2, 2011

My feeling was so mixed up
Maybe due tqo what happened ytd
It's my second night shift work yet I don't really enjoy like last time
Alvin Gorgor had left Cathay liao...Coming up is Calvin
Looks like almost everyone had left...just left mi

Sometime I really felt that I've been bullied by my manager
And there's no way I can talk back coz their position is higher than mi
Just like ytd...
Jozann put mi at movie express where I need to do washing
So I told her that u want to transfer mi to concess?Coz I can't do any washing
She sae is alright and will sent someone up with mi
When comes to night LiMin was there
But was transfered to Concess at 10pm
And bad new is I need to closing for Movie Express
I cant even do any washing...how am I going to close Movie Express?
And I get scolded for that...
Really got a feeling that I was bully by them...
Yet I cant phase it out...
LiMin and Calvin saw that and was there to comfort mi ...
Thanks guys

Sometime I really think if Zeezam and afi were on duty
Will that happened on mi
I don think so..
Right now I really hope that Afi is back for duty!!!

Being hyper at external yet not hyper in internal
Really feel so tiring...
Yet that's the only way to cover all my sadness,unhappy and suffers!!!