Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Jon KianAnn Kira LiBing
Nicholas PeiYi Priscilla QiuPing
Shermen SiewLan Wendy WenJun

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Friday, September 9, 2011

I been asking myself this few weeks and days
I know I should not like/love him since he got girlfriend alr
But I really do not know my current feeling towards him
Whenever I go inside his work place...
I always must give myself a few seconds to tell myself that I must treat him as a friends instead onrmally...But I managed to do that
I can say that up till now I still miss him when comes to night
But I can't help myself
When comes to night...I felt lonely...I really got urge to dail his number to chit chat with him
But I can't because he got girlfriend and I don't have any right or reason to call him at late hour
The only thing that can keep myself away from lonely
was to lock myself in the word of drama where there are KHY,WuZun and etc

Sometime I felt miserable towards my feeling
When I first saw his gf...she looks 20plus insteads of 31...
I believed he's lying to mi but I never question him
Coz his not even my boy...
Then he told mi that sentence in the gym
I really don't know what's he thinking...

SL actually asked mi do I feel miserable
My answer is "Yes"
I wanted to hate him...But I can't do it
I wanted to know what he's thinking yet I can't asked
I wanted to continue like him yet I can't due to his girl
And only thing I can do was to treat him as friends

Now the days I tend to sleep more late compared to last time
Can u believe?I sleep 3plus to 4 plus or even don sleep at all
And the next day I sleep like a pig in train when I was on the way to work
I know he's not worth for mi to do that
Even my friends also can't believe I can like a guy up till this state...
Even myself also don believe...
Compared to Tianhuar...I feel so much terrible and drop a lot of tears...

Now I know that they are closing 3 weeks for renovation
I can make use of this 3 weeks to arrange my feeling
As for relationship...I can only let god to decide
If I really want to be with him as a couple...I will need miracle to happen
But I know that will not happen to mi....
So maybe single is what god had planned for mi ba...