Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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Mediabox

"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Meet the people I love♥

Aloysious AJ Amily AnQi
Blogshop BingMing ChewFong Chynna
Doreen Elaine Eunice HuanLing
HuiBin HuiWen Jane Jasmine
Jon KianAnn Kira LiBing
Nicholas PeiYi Priscilla QiuPing
Shermen SiewLan Wendy WenJun

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Wednesday, September 28, 2011

27th of Sept!!!
A day that my grandma left mi 7yrs ago...
I miss her so much that no one can imagine
All these while I been telling myself that
I must be strong...I cannot become crybaby anymore and etc...
Felt so tired...yet no one was beside mi to lend mi a shoulder...
How sad I am!!!
But luckly thanks to Phyu,Alvin and Pearlyn...I manged to spend my spend with joy and laughter...
But it's just that I miss someone calling mi
"juajuan"

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Seriously I really don know what happen between Aj and mi
Calling him a few times yet he don even pick up the calls
Does that means that adults quarrel and their child need to stop contacting each other?
If that's the case...I will fixed the cracks no matter what...

I had sick and enough of this!
Cracks between the family members
Family are not united....
Misunderstanding between sisters...
Mind was full of rubbish...
etc...

What's else I'm going to face...
God is letting mi to choose 2 out of 1?
Friendship and family?
Both are impt to mi...
They are part of my life...
I can't afford to loss any of them...
But what can I do...
I can't do much but to seat and watch...
Really hate this kind of feeling!!!!

If really can't fixed any of them....
That's it...
I'm going to wash hand with all these...
It's selfish...I know...
But it's the only way to protect myself from shedding of tears...

27th of the month is coming le...
The date where grandma left mi 6 years back
Why this day must come so fastl...
I really scare that I will break down...
Be a strong gal?I believe I had did it...
That's what I ghad promised to my graqndma...
But Happy gal...will be quite tough for mi...
Nothing is impossible!!!
I believe I can do it...
JYJYJy

So happy that Oct onwards...
I CAN DO CLOSING:)
Bro is coming back after 2months of MC
I miss the time where we work together^^
Really hope that he will like the birthday cake I given to him today:)

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Today went to Kbox Scape for K session
This K session was not the same as last time
Coz the purpose of this session is to sing with our own style
and the way of choosing the songs are consider "old songs"
Coz we chose F4 as well as old songs sang by JJ Lin and Jay...
Had a super wonderful session with WenJun and Brenda
Thanks to WenJun...I from hyper become extreme hyper

After which we headed to 313 for dinner at Marche
Den we went to 7-11 at PS to buy Heineken...
It's the first time that I drink with my buddy
But because we too high alr...end up we keep on changing location
From SMU...we head to TC for our drink session
Had a drinking and chit chat session...
Then by right I told myself I only drink half bottle of it and the rest asked wenjun to settle for mi
But some how...I finished the whole bottle

In fact we did a lot of chit chat and the topic was relationship..
I can say what I said is true...
Buddy used to ask mi why I sleep so late
Now den I reply your answer
Not I don;t want to sleep...
But I just force myself not to sleep
Coz I know once I sleep early...I'm surly having nightmare
But what can I do....
To mi...10plus onward...is the most difficult time that I had out of whole day
I tend to think of him...But I force myself not to
So I locked myself in drama an d study
As for recently...I was hyper because I never expect that he will reply mi this way
In fact when I log in fb ytd...I 'm able to see his wall...
I become more hyper...that the reason why today I became crazy...

I don't buddy can see or not...
But I can said now the days I become an actress...
I tend to act in front of him and my sisters...
Just to cover my sadness and my weakness...
I'm was sad abt what Chynna's wrote on her blog...
But I can'tr show my weakness...
Honestly...I really wanted to go BBQ with him...
To tell Chynna that we are friends and stop creating thing just to see "good show"
But the moment I said..."u go with mi la...then I go"
He kept quite...and the only thing I can said is "joking with u de"
I really got the urge of telling him that I like him....
But I can't....Coz he got GF
If I said it out...people might think that I'm the 3rd party...
So there's nothing I can do...

As we chit chat...my emotion is getting out of control
Maybe that the reason why I managed to finish the whole bottle....
Hahas

After drinking....
Wenjun and mi acc Brenda to TPY and we take cab home
Anyway thanks buddy for the cit chat session
I hope that u are alright too...
But if anything happen...just give mi a call or chat with mi msn...
My phone was 24hrs on...
The situation that we are facing now...
Just let it flow...like what u said to mi
So let's Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou together...


When I reach home...
I think I'm a bit drunk...
I don't know coz I nv been drunk before...
But I felt dizzy
Before I enter the house...I eat a lot of sweets just to cover the smell
But some how my aunt manage to smell that I had drank beer
Hahas
And get scolded...but nvm...
At least today I was happy to spend time with him and Brenda...
I think we should have more beer session in future:)

Friday, September 9, 2011

I been asking myself this few weeks and days
I know I should not like/love him since he got girlfriend alr
But I really do not know my current feeling towards him
Whenever I go inside his work place...
I always must give myself a few seconds to tell myself that I must treat him as a friends instead onrmally...But I managed to do that
I can say that up till now I still miss him when comes to night
But I can't help myself
When comes to night...I felt lonely...I really got urge to dail his number to chit chat with him
But I can't because he got girlfriend and I don't have any right or reason to call him at late hour
The only thing that can keep myself away from lonely
was to lock myself in the word of drama where there are KHY,WuZun and etc

Sometime I felt miserable towards my feeling
When I first saw his gf...she looks 20plus insteads of 31...
I believed he's lying to mi but I never question him
Coz his not even my boy...
Then he told mi that sentence in the gym
I really don't know what's he thinking...

SL actually asked mi do I feel miserable
My answer is "Yes"
I wanted to hate him...But I can't do it
I wanted to know what he's thinking yet I can't asked
I wanted to continue like him yet I can't due to his girl
And only thing I can do was to treat him as friends

Now the days I tend to sleep more late compared to last time
Can u believe?I sleep 3plus to 4 plus or even don sleep at all
And the next day I sleep like a pig in train when I was on the way to work
I know he's not worth for mi to do that
Even my friends also can't believe I can like a guy up till this state...
Even myself also don believe...
Compared to Tianhuar...I feel so much terrible and drop a lot of tears...

Now I know that they are closing 3 weeks for renovation
I can make use of this 3 weeks to arrange my feeling
As for relationship...I can only let god to decide
If I really want to be with him as a couple...I will need miracle to happen
But I know that will not happen to mi....
So maybe single is what god had planned for mi ba...

Recently watch "Let's Talk 你在囧什么2"
It's an entertainment show that talk abt what tennagers are thing
Which also link to my world too:)
The 1st ep was abt friendship

To mi friendship is important
But not that important compared to Family
Maybe because ppl changes as the days goes...
In the show...actually got a qns that asked is there anything that makes u hurt on what friends do...

To mi the answer is "Yes"
This person was not Doreen
Compared to Doreen...This person hurt mi more...
At least Doreen hurt mi was by using verbal action
But this person was using both verbal and action
She know mi for 10 years yet she told mi that she don't understand mi at all?
I will not believe her...
It's true that I had built a wall in my heart to stop everyone to understand mi
But that don't not give u any excuses to say that U don't understand mi at all

She knows that I like him
And I believed she knows that he got gf alr
So there's nothing I can look forwards to it
But she create a situation that might cause a broke in friendship btw him and mi
Assuming things...
What's makes u think that he go and I will turn up???
FUCK Q!!!!
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It's been years that I never scold "chu hua"
And now she make mi scold again
Anyway I had made a decision not to contact with her
So there's nothing it will affect mi
Just hope that she will not have any ability to affect my world

Monday, September 5, 2011

真正爱一个人的时候，而那个人也不爱你
你会觉得和辛苦

Friday, September 2, 2011

Where should I start with
These few days I felt so tired
Other than working...I also studying and even meet out with sisters and buddy to relax
Really spend a lot...
Gonna to cut down my expenses....

Yesterday was Teacher's day
I wish all my teachers and lecturers a Happy Teacher's Day
Went back to Fuchun Sec to visit my teachers
But I can't get to see Ms Tracy
I miss my sec sch life
I miss the canteen foods
I miss all my teachers
I miss the time when I was fighting
I miss each and everyday in sec sch
I miss my sch and class mates
Although I always get bullied by my classmates...but I still miss them

Today meet out with Buddy for movie
Went to watch Final Destination 5 at The Cathay
After watching it...
I promise that I will not watch anymore horror and bloody scenes movies
It was way too scary
After which headed to Suntec for IT show...
And Last location was Have U eaten cafe
:)

I felt so tired after today activity
I think I will have a early night now
Tml still need to wake up at 6 plus for work
GD NITE:)