Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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Mediabox

"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Meet the people I love♥

Aloysious AJ Amily AnQi
Blogshop BingMing ChewFong Chynna
Doreen Elaine Eunice HuanLing
HuiBin HuiWen Jane Jasmine
Jon KianAnn Kira LiBing
Nicholas PeiYi Priscilla QiuPing
Shermen SiewLan Wendy WenJun

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Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Result was out yet at 12pm...
I'm been worry sick and finally I received new mail from my inbox
Know that I score 76...my friends and parents are happy for mi
But I don feel any excitement ...coz I'm not happy with my result
My expectation was 80 yet I only get 76?
Just 4 marks to go lei...
Although I was not happy...there's nothing I can change...
So but to accept it...
SL,WJ and mummy were trying to cheer mi up
But they failed...
After my lesson...headed to BBP...
It's been years that I had not been there...
Went there to meet my BF Khanafi...
Hahas...
Where on earth I got a BF right?
U all think lor...
Because we care for each other like as if he's my Bf
But I see him as my eldest brother
Hahas

Knowing mi I was down,upset and can't chill down
He meet mi to have a nice chit chat:)
Really enjoy the chit chat time with him:)
Going to find him the next time when I'm free:)
Hope his hand will recover fast:)

Thank sis,buddy,aj,mummy and BF for cheering mi up
I'm ok right now...
And I believe I can do well...
Thanks for the courage and confident that u guys had given mi:)

Friday, August 19, 2011

When to Changi Airport with WenJun for study
Today he really entertain mi a lot...
Laugh until my stomach pain:)
First is he wear sun shade when he reach airport
Next is the way he walk really like idol
Hahas
Buddy...really trying to be funny with mi:)
Plus one thing was I look like his assistant coz I wearing a backpack
Hahas:)
Headed to T3 for study and Den went to Marina Sq to slag:)

Today really was a fun and enjoyable day with him...
Or izzit because I too long nv laugh like this le....?
Don really had appetite recently plus a bit of moody

The moment that I step in to Changi Airport
All my childhood's memories flashed in my mind
Out of 19 yrs...those day was the most happy
The time where my family are together
But right now...It's impossible to go back to the past
So many things happened to my family recently yet I do not know how to crop it
Other than laughing like nobody business just to cover my unhappiness
I really what else I can do
Really feel so helpless

I really don't know what kind of feeling to write this post
Can u imagine I was crying while writing?
I already promised not to cry yet I still cry

Handling all things at the same time was not easy for mi
Family,work,study and even forgetting Sxxxxxxxx...
Really felt so tired...
Just wanted to sleep and never wake up...
:`(


阿公，嬷嬷
娟娟好想你们！
为什么当初你不要带我更你们走呢
向你们的滋味好辛苦好难受
每次孤单的时候就像是夜晚
好难受
总是做恶梦，永远被吓醒
希望能够快点见到你们

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Suddenly got a lot of things wanted to talk about
Friends keep on asking mi why my character look like a guy even thought I was a gal...
A very good qns...yet I need to find word to phases it out

All my closer friends and buddies know
my mum was a person that dote guys more than gals
That is the reason why I change myself...
Before my brothers were born to this world...
I was being love by everyone including my parents
But after which when I reach 6-7 yrs old and my brother was 3-4 yrs old
Everything change...And I realize that all this was due to my brother
Hence I started act that I'm a boy...
All the way till now...
TomBoy was what I was called by my friends when I was in school
If now suddenly wanted mi to change back to my girly character...
I afraid I can't...
If though in some ways I look like cry ...eg cry when I feel hurt
But I already forget what I look when I was girly...
So friends and buddy...I have answers your question:)

Although it's sound silly and stupid to did that just to catch attention from my parents
But this world...
有哪一个子女不希望她的妈妈能够注意她疼她
If really there's this kind of person...
I really want to make friend with her and ask her how she survive

Monday, August 15, 2011

Recently what happened to mi
Remains mi of what had happened 3yrs back ago at Doreen's chalet
If that time we nv go to OCH to explore,maybe I will not have this strong feeling...
Up till now...what had happened on that day was clear and fresh in my mind
Likes it was happen just yesterday

Exploring OCH with 12friends was the worse decision that we had made
Coz going in by single digit will see them easily...
And worse thing was we go in to explore at midnight 2plus am
which is most haunted timing
It was dark inside and was messy...
But I back off when comes to second floor
Coz I heard something and feel something
So I told my friend that I wanted to get out of this place while the other continues
Going out with 3 buddies...
On the way to exit...we eventually get lost coz we are walkinging round and round
And after which we are able to get out of it
A few minutes later...the rest of my friends also get out
and we went to nearby coffee shop for a drink

At first I though nothing will happened
But it was not true...and happened on my very best buddy,Aloy
He gets angry easily and the way he behave was not like him
Throwing 50bucks to the cab driver and ask him to keep the change was not him
Returning back to chalet and hid himself under the pillow
Made mi feeling more scary and worry

Then we know that "something" was inside his body
Coz all the 5guys trying to get him out of darkness...all flew
And the only people was can help him was 4 of them
The rest need to wait outside the chalet...
I was so worry that I hug Doreen...I'm scared that I will lost him as my buddy
and after 2 hrs...he was okay:)
And talk to mi...
Seeing mi cry like a baby outside the chalet...he calm mi down and talking about TianHuar's staff
Saying that he was not worth it for mi to drop tears...
But my crying was partly on both of them....
Thanks goddness...he was alright:)

Up till now...I can't forget what had happened on that day
Coz it's will remains mi not to go any haunted place anymore especially on the 7th month

Although I know that my buddies will not see this post...
I still want to say
One day buddy is equals to whole life buddies
Without you guys...My past will not feel with joy and memories
Really <3 u guys

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Watching Captain America with buddy today
Went to The Cathay to watch
Almost everyday I go Orchard
-_-
After which...
Went to OC for dinner at Mos
And headed to Douby again for some photo shot
While helping Buddy to take photo
Suddenly heard children make noise
But the strange thing is around us....there's no children
Why the children making noise
And my fear was getting stronger and stronger
Like got sth watching us....
So it's better to return home
Sorry Buddy,Cant help u take a few shot
But promise I will help u again on Wed:)

I promised that I will return home before 9pm for the 7th month
In order for mi to be safe...
SCARY:(

Friday, August 12, 2011

Here comes my update:)
Recently feeling so tiring...
Not physically tired but mentally tired
Past few weeks had been through a lot of thing
And now is time to let go and give myself a break...
Just like the song....I want to be a strong and independent girl
Coz I want to have a beautiful tomorrow...

Anyway currently I was pack with assignments and works
Everyday assignment assignment assignment
Really want to throw aside and relax myself...
I been skipping school 2 time consider today
1st time was I was over tired on Sunday which lead mi can't wake up for sch
The sec time which is today was due to last mins knowing that I have class and I cant change my work time...So no choice but to skip...

Just hope all my tomorrow will be beautiful
If I don cry,face it,have the courage and become independent gal...
Got to sleep le...
Good Night everyone:)

Saturday, August 6, 2011

People will be wondering how is my life
Good?Bad?Actually I don't know how to judge my life
All I know that I treat him as a normal friend...
Coz that the only choice I can choose...
I admin that I felt so terrible after I saw his gal
Can't even sleep,cry in reality while I was sleeping...
I keep myself as busy as I am...
Working 5days a week was what I did to myself...
Even my supervisor couldn't believe it...and start to worry abt mi
He even stop myself from working for two days by changing my constrains...

Finally I really wake up my mind
I start to change my regular life style...
AND put my focus on my study:D

One thing that I start to make myself to have a habit
That is I depend on myself...cannot relay on others...
Coz I notice that relaying on others for help will show how weak the person is...
So why do I want my friend to see my negative side...???

Going down to Orchard was part of my daily lifestyle
Coz my sch is at Orchards,My work is at Orchards and even my gathering is at Orchards...
So I see my friends more often than my sisters...

But luckily I have my friends with mi while I was working
Working at Cathay will make myself more happy even-though something I will get angry easily...
But everything must control control and control
Even-though my aunt wanted mi to quit this job
I also refuse...coz I really enjoy working at there
:)

Love life was actually my super weak point...
So I must stay as far as I could
It's a way to prevent myself from getting hurt again....
Getting hurt again and again will not just help mi grow up but also will affect mi a lot
So no love life for mi unless I really love the 3guy and the gal love mi
That will be different case...

Sometime I will feel lonely
But lonely does not determine everything
If really I was desperate for boyfriend...
Then I should accept Eddy instead of rejecting him
People will be wound who is Eddy...
Eddy was the 3rd guy that admire mi when I was 16
I rejected him once and now he still don't give up...
Hahas...But too bad he came at the wrong timing and I don't like him

To mi
All guys are the same excluding my buddies,brothers and cousins
So gals
Be clever...don't because of their sweet talk...
Then u believe that they like you
All guys are bastards!!!