Resistance♥

Saturday, July 30, 2011

My legs were cramp like siao:(
This what happen when I never do warm-up before running...

Today as normal went to work
The only thing is I went to work with a heavy heart
Eventually rain while I was taking train to Cathay
Coz he is coming to Cathay to watch movie with his gal
After which headed to box office to help him buy tickets
Around 12plus he reach the Cathay...I saw him at first but I hid myself
Coz I noticed eyes are red...so I must prepared myself...
He took the tickets from mi and went to do his shopping

After 20mins....
While I was chit-chatting with Derrick....
Suddenly Derrick said a few sentence that I found it so weird
When I turn and look...Then I notice he came to redeem his popcorn from mi
And then he walking away with his gal...
I can only stand and watch his back view
Watching his back view made my heart more pains...
So I went to hid inside the washroom to do my crying for half hours after the crowd...
I told myself...
After the half hour....I will stop crying and went back to where we start...
Coz I know he don't worth it for mi to drop tears more than half hour...
The day at concession was terrible due to my feeling
But luckily there are Derrick,Hari and sofi...
Thanks guys for your concern
I really enjoy my day at concession:)

Labels: chit-chatting with

♥our day is full of surprise

12:37:00 AM

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

The whole morning got a feeling that something bad is going happen
And really it's happening just now

First...I was glad that I found my assess card in the office
Which helps mi to save 5bucks
Next around 6 plus...I suddenly felt so angry and scolded them...
Coz two of the staffs stand there talking and leave mi do everything
I alr drop off and yet still want mi to the thing

After which headed to CWP to exchange the dise that my aunt brought
Then he asked mi out for gym...I promised that I will turn
Next he told mi that he going to watch movie with his gf at The Cathay
And will find mi when he came...
Finally I got the chance to see his gf...
But I felt so pain in the heart...
I'm scared that I will collapse on Friday after he came with his gf...

If really he does...
I'm going to put an end for everything on Friday
This time round...I will get distracted by any of his actions and words
After a big cry ...I will turn everything back to zero
To the time that we just knew each other...

Buddy:I promise u that I will back to normal after Friday...

♥our day is full of surprise

10:18:00 PM

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

What the!!!
All my messages are gone:(
Which mean my data are gone too:(
Hais...I was so upset about this coz the most precious thing in my phone was my messages
:(
Now is all gone!!!Plus I forget to do back up every time I on my laptop
Hais

Went to NSC in the morning with my aunt for my appointment
After which aunt said wanted to go CWP for breakfast and lunch
What a tired day for mi plus I do not get any enough sleep recently
Then one thing that makes mi very surprise
My aunt said she wanted to go TS to buy new dvd for Ronney
Actually I decided to not to go in for a month
as I scared that he will treat mi very cold
But today when I went in...he treat mi very friendly
:)
After which headed to Cold Storage for shopping

I thinking I falling sick soon:(
Sneeze non-stop,flu,cough,sore throat and ulcers in my month
How I wish I will recover my sore throat fast as next Wed headed to Scape for K:)

♥our day is full of surprise

10:13:00 PM

Sunday, July 24, 2011

I miss u yet I can't look for u
Totally collapse/break down for an hour at my home toilet
Cried for an hour after which did my homework
But luckily today was quite a busy day for mi
Had my lunch and dinner together
But there a few minutes that I miss u so much
Almost dropping my tears...But Khanafi was there to concern mi
Thanks Khanafi:)
Tml will be my sch day....
Hope I will not miss u

♥our day is full of surprise

10:31:00 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

I feel so tired after a week of sleepless night and basketball shooting
Hahas
Really don't have proper sleep for 24hrs...
End up...sleep in mrt,walking on the street and even sleep in the lift while I going to Level 5
Anyway today work till 4.30 and I close counter
Since there's not much crowd I slag at office while waiting for my buddy WenJun
Had our dinner at Xin Wang and headed to Star Factory to play basketball
We play 7 times in a row and
only to manage to break our record 5 times out of 7times
And these 7 times always end after final level:)
Had a record of 615pts...What a good tag team:)

Anyway thanks Derrick for the concern and accompany mi to talk at concess
Thanks Khanafi for cheering mi up:)
Thanks Buddy for accompany mi after my work and play basketball with mi
Really great thanks to three of u...Feel so much better after today
I believe I can get to sleep today:)

♥our day is full of surprise

10:56:00 PM

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

What am I doing for the past few days
I can't even had a proper sleep for almost entire a week
Every morning when I go work...I just look like a dead body
Not I don want to sleep neither do I don't feel tired
But I just can't get to sleep...
The moment I close my eyes...my mind was full of him
And it stop at what he told mi and the details of whatsapp

I tried all kind of ways to make myself sleep...
I sing,exercise,roll here roll there,study till crazy and watch video too
But still cant get to sleep
No matter how busy that I had set for my daily life...I just cant stop thinking about him
:(

Finally today my panda eyes coming out
Felt so tired while I was working and even cry in the washroom when my mind start to flash back
Why are u so cruel to mi...if u don't like mi pls don't said that sentence to mi
Thanks to my Cathay friends for cheering mi up
and buddy for meeting mi tml for basketball machine...

Hope that I will turn back to normal

♥our day is full of surprise

9:17:00 PM

Sunday, July 17, 2011

我不是发过誓说不会为仍和一个男人掉眼泪的吗
为何我还是会为他掉眼泪呢？
还以为是老天爷要我去找他的
因为我今天不小心掉了我的红粉

没想到当我跟他的朋友讲话时
他让我感觉他对我有点冷淡
我的心好痛好痛

为什么你又对我这样呢
我到底做的什么让你这样对我呢
是因为我跟我的兄弟庆生吗
还是因为有别的理由？
自从你知道我跟我的兄弟出门
你就没有再传简讯给我了
我传简讯给你也不回我
你究竟在想什么？
你知道吗。。。我每个晚上多好想你
想到我真的睡不了
就算我吃再多的安眠药，我还是睡不了
你能了解那种想念的感觉吗？
就算我把我弄得多累也好
我还是那么的想你

脾气也开始越来越暴躁
脸上开始慢慢的失去笑容
这样的我还是我吗？
我是知道我喜欢的是你
可是我没有哪个勇气告诉你。。。
就算我性格像男孩子又怎样。。。我就是没有男孩子的勇气
当初你就因该知道我的男性朋友比女性朋友还多
而几乎我所有的男性朋友都是我的兄弟。。。希望你能了解
你喜不喜欢我。。。终究还是个谜
我根本不知道你再想什么。。。你总是让我猜不透
现在我只希望有一个肩膀让我靠
像是爱似百汇理的大业。。。
当小风难过的时候...大业就借他的肩膀让小风靠

♥our day is full of surprise

9:24:00 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2011

I have been waiting for so long
And finally It on cast...
Watching Harry Potter with my cousin,AJ
It's been almost 2yrs that we have not watch movie together
Had breakfast together at PS
and headed to The Cathay for movie
After the movie headed home for dinner with aunt
Hahas

♥our day is full of surprise

9:27:00 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I'm so tired now...
I just loved today crowd as it's makes mi busy:)
Today busy like siao!!!
But I had a lots of fun...working as a team
By right work until 6pm de...
But heard that they had not enough staffs...
So I extend till 8pm...
All of them was shock to see that I having nuts again for lunch:)
But till I was alright with them...
They are the one who actually do sometime that cheer mi up
Loves u guys a lot
Although today I was the only Chinese in the concession
But I really enjoy working with the rest of of them

After which headed home to rest
Then I kanna scolded for nothing
I never did anything wrong...and U scolded mi
Every time Ah B did the wrong thing...u scold mi
If u really don't like mi...I rather I was not born in this family
Already I felt tired after my work...and U still scold mi

I know I'm the extra in this family or maybe among my friends
But I'm still a human...I have feeling de
These few weeks I really very moody...Can't even have properly sleep at night
Sometime I really feel that I changed totally into a different person
Where is the old shujuan who have courage to face everything and will not hid from it
And Now this shujuan...don't have the courage and hid from something that she don't dare to face

Dream of granny ytd night
Asking mi what happen...Told her everything in the dreams
And eventually I cried out...
The moment I woke up...my pillow was wet...
Don't that mean I cried out in real life.????
Only crying makes mi feel better...
This shows how weak I am...

Anyway tml going to a busy day for mi too
Gonna to make my next week pack by setting my constrains longer...
That's the only way that stop myself from thinking of him...

♥our day is full of surprise

10:25:00 PM

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Although it was a belated Birthday
But still I wish Wenjun Happy 20th Birthday
Hahas

Went to The Cathay today to wait for Wenjun
Then while waiting for him
I get prepare for his Birthday surprise plan
Been thinking almost 2-3 days just to give him surprise
First I brought a small cake from CWP without letting him know
and bring it to The Cathay
Then I put it at the sandwiches factory so that it will not melt
And I wait wait wait and wait
Waited almost for 3hrs and
Finally he turn up
So give him a surprise by asking him to wait for mi at the concession
Although I'm a bit of 手忙脚乱
But manage to give him a small surprise by bring the cake towards him
Haha
He was shock to see that....
Hahas
Surprise Buddy:)

After which went to PS together to shop a while and headed to Star Factory
to play basketball with Wenjun
Hahas
First time tag team to play
Managed to enter to the 4th round for first 2 times
and final round for last two times:)
Eventually makes a highest score of 564pt:)
Hahas
After which headed to Xinwang for dinner and Home sweet home

Although I bring a heavy heart out today
But thanks to my buddy:)
I enjoy my day:)

♥our day is full of surprise

10:42:00 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

I simply hate this kind of feeling
A feeling that admire a person who have a GF and yet told mi xxxxxxxxx
I really don't know what are u thinking
Why u tell mi all this
Are u trying to joke with mi,flirting or testing mi?
I really not sure...
Buddy,KA and AJ all asked mi not to think of u And let it be...
But I really can't control my mind I know I not suppose to like u coz u got GF alr... But can't control my heart...
Thinking that maybe I go work...
I will stop thinking of U But I was wrong...
Working in Cathay was good as my friends welcome mi back to the team
But when comes to no crowd,just like today
My mind was full of your looks...
The entire day I was thinking of you
Just like I'm going to break down in a few mins time...
But I control my tears
Just went to see you...and you told mi about her thing
Actually I know this long time ago...just like I act that I don know
Sometime not knowing is good than knowing I really don't know why u told mi all these?
What are u thinking?
Joking?Playing?Testing?
Can U pls give mi some hints or tell mi directly

♥our day is full of surprise

9:35:00 PM

Monday, July 11, 2011

好高兴他今天有来
有到好过没到
虽然我没有表现出来，可是我看到他的时候好开心
可是当跟我说xxxxxxxxxxxxx的时候，我很意外和吓倒
为什么他要跟我说这些呢
是不是他看到了什么，还是知识逗我玩
我真的不知道。。。
可是我很快的回应他，“是哦”
因为我想隐藏我对他的感情，不想让他知道我喜欢他
竟然他有女朋友了，我唯一能做的是隐藏，因为我不想做第3者

可是为什么他要跟我说这些呢
我好矛盾，脑子好混乱
可是我却满脑子里都想着他
好相见他，去找他
可是我都不能这样做
Who can tell mi what should I do???

♥our day is full of surprise

8:30:00 PM

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Should consider yesterday ba
Went back to work at Cathay after a year break
Every thing had change including the systems
So need time to absorb everything
But was in hand quite fast...
Make a couples of new friends
Like Sofi,Derrick and etc...
Really got a hard time remember names especially malay friends
Finally I found a person at Cathay who can talk about my hobby
which is Singing
Hahas^^

Suddenly got the urge of going KBOX
to sing old songs sang by Rainie Yang like "Ai Mei"
It's been years that I have not touch this songs
Hahas

Today was not a really busy day even-though Transformers was on cast
Sometimes I rather to be busy
Only busy will keep mi occupied and stop thinking
I don't know what had happen to mi
But my mind was abt u...About the sms u send
These are the questions that flowed in my mind:
1)Why u sms suddenly?
2)Why u stop sms mi for almost half a year
3)What are u thinking?

But I get no answer?
Do u know how hard I tried not to find u even I miss u?
If I was there,I force myself not to go in...
Forcing myself not to do this do that is hard for mi...
I know what I did was through my own will
But just wanted to said it out
For just the 1 month break I had since the 6th June
I miss u each and everyday
Going there everyday just hope to see u...
But U was not there...
Even U saw mi at there also don't bother to call mi
Then what can I said...
Even today...I miss u whenever there's no crowd
What The!!!!
Derrick asked mi go break...I really don't want to go...
I'm scared when I think of u,my tears will drop
U are one of the reasons that I determine to slim down....
How stupid I am???!!!!

♥our day is full of surprise

12:40:00 AM

Friday, July 8, 2011

My whole mind was abt him
Suddenly received his sms really made mi shock
We had not been sms each other for almost half a years
And suddenly he text mi...even I text him...he also never reply
Hmmm...
Asking mi whether I got go or not...yet I cant see him in the morning
What is he thinking?
Sometimes I really think I'm a fool....still believing what he said
K-Buffet,IT Show and K-session...all this outing he had not turn out
He just said need to work for all the event except IT show

I really don't know what's he thinking...
Stop to text mi after the FB chaos that Chynna created...
Before exam cold towards mi...after exam become like what we use to...
Telling mi that he's got GF automatically
I really feel hurt that time...I bet he will not know
Coz is the punishment for admire a person secretly...

What's now?
Text mi when I decided to give up everything
What am I suppose to do???
LOST?SAD?HAPPY BECAUSE HE TEXT MI?
I know that I don't have the right to admire or fall in love with a guy...
but why haven must give mi this kind of joke???
Can't u treat mi better after taking all my precious people and things away from mi?

Maybe just let it be ba...
Like what my buddy had said to mi early on
Time for mi to need a rest,good night sleep,stop thinking and
the moment I wake up will be a brand new day for mi!!!???

Thank Wenjun for being my listening ear...

♥our day is full of surprise

12:30:00 AM

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

My Fringe super short and ugly

Went to reborn my fringe ytd morning
Really can't take it my fringe
Messes and dry
After reborning...my fringe became short and ugly
Now I learned my lesson
That is not to cut my hair personally
:(

♥our day is full of surprise

7:19:00 PM

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Today the weather was super hot
It's a boring day for me
Maybe because I do not have any books to study
That why I do not know how to spend the day
Hence...first thing was to change my blogskin
And then went to have a afternoon nap...
Boring right???

Sometimes I rather to be busy than having free time
At least when I busy...I will not think of this think of that...
I really don't know how to shake him off from my stupid mind
I only now him for around half a year...yet I still unable to shake him off
I know I do not have the rights to think of him...neither do I have the right to like him
A person like me will be able to find a right guy to like/love mi
So why do I have hopes in my heart???

In this world...who will like a girl with scared all over the hands and legs?
Bad temper and suffering from enzymes???
If there is...how come I still haven't meet him or look for mi...?

Anyway school starting tml
Yet I seeing the wrong slot...
Going to skip my first lesson...
And had a early morning run to refresh my mind and myself for tml...
Hoping u will had a enjoyable Sunday^^

♥our day is full of surprise

8:22:00 PM

Friday, July 1, 2011

School reopen soon!!!

So happy yet a bit of sad...
Hahas...

During this break...
Keep on going to Orchards for activity...
First was to meet up my long lost buddy,Wenjun at Orchard for movie and dinner
Second was with Huiping at scape for K-ING
Third was my long lost ex-colleague,Ri at CWP for X-Men movie
Fourth was with Huiping at Sentosa
Fifth was at The Cathay with HuiPing for Mr Popper's penguins
Sixth was with my cousin AJ and brother for bowling
And last was with WenJun at Marsiling CC for K-ING

Out of so many activities
I felt the most enjoyable were the bowling session with cousin and K session with Wenjun
Hahas
Thanks Ri,WenJun,AJ and Huiping for filling up my breaks with relaxing events
^^

What's next!!!
I finally found a part time job for myself
Not to just keep my occupied to stop my mind from thinking
But also help up with home expenses

Anyway next week onwards
I will be more busier...
But till I will make a few days free to meet up with my sisters and Wenjun...

JiaYou JiaYou JiaYou

♥our day is full of surprise

7:15:00 PM