Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Jon KianAnn Kira LiBing
Nicholas PeiYi Priscilla QiuPing
Shermen SiewLan Wendy WenJun

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Saturday, June 25, 2011

I just don know why today was so moody
Maybe is family issue ba...
Went Plaza Singapura with HuiPing for some job interviews
Den headed to The Cathay to watch Mr Popper's Penguins

It been a year that I never step into The Cathay
So the first thing that I step in was to find my fellow ex-colleagues
Sham,Micheal,Ah heng and etc...
Hahas
They was shock to see mi...Some even said they miss mi
Hahas
Asking mi to go back to work with them...
But still considering...
Had a nice chit-chat with them...
After movie went to see 楊丞琳 too
And the last stop was XinWang for dinner before headed home...

Anyway
I don't know what's wrong with me today
But I'm sorry!!!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

I just don't know how to describe the feeling
In the morning...I was tired like hell...
So I drag myself to the gym thinking that I will feel better after a run
Instead of feeling better...I feeling more worse...
End up both my shoulder and back ache like hell
Next...My back and shoulders ache till that I went to fell asleep

By the time I wake up...My temper became more worse
I start to throw my temper due to the pain on my shoulders and back
Next...My younger brother get scolded by me
First...he use my app without asking mi...
Next he see my nephew tearing books with stopping him
and he don even bother to do his revision for his prelim and PSLE

Really very angry towards my brother
I was trying to help him so that he will not retard for his PSLE
He at there...instead of using his free time to study...he play
How am I not to get angry???

Recently...
My friend had found his new girlfriend...Congrats him...
Asking mi to find one too...
But I told him that I will not find one unless my brother's stuff are stable...
Honestly specking...I really wanted to find one that I relay on...
But I cant even have the time to take care of myself...
How am I going to have a time to find a bf
Plus finding a person who he like u and u like him...is a very difficult thing...

I really think that I don have the right to like a person
Not I don like him or to tell him that I like him...
But I was fear or outcome and don have the courage to do so
A person like mi...will not being loved or like by another person
So mind as well...staying single and stop day dreaming...

Dreams are beautiful...
But they also can be cruel to u...
Past few weeks ...I been dreaming how we start and every moment that we spend together...
Right now...
I should concentrate on my studies and take care of everyone in the family...

How I wish I can be like ytd...
Seating along the beach alone...
Coz it gives mi a feeling that my grandpa and granny are by my side to support...

I admin that I'm a weak person
A person that I need to relay on someone to support mi...
But I had been trying very hard to live alone in this world...
Just hope that I was able to do that before I collapse...

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

3yrs....
It's been 3yrs that that I had not step in Sentosa
Not I don get a chance to step in...
But is due to the incident that happened 3 yrs back with TianHuar
Up till now I still can remember how deep that he had hurt mi in Sentosa

Although he choose to hurt mi at the end of the trip...
I still enjoy the day...The day with Doreen,Michelle,Gracia,Tianhuar and his group of friends...
It was fun and memorable day
Sometime I really think is there any possible that we can be buddies again instead of friends?
I really wonder...

To mi
Sentosa was a place that contained all my childhood memories
Since young...I had all my family gathering in Sentosa...
Almost every Sunday we go there...
But as we grow up...We stop going there...
A place that full of my grandpa memories...

As for today...Went there with HuiPing and her friends
Although it is not as fun as that time that I gone there with tianhuar...
I still enjoy the day...
Sunten myself the whole aftternoon...
At the end of the day...became BBQ SJ and fuji apple
Hahas

Anyway
Really enjoy myself today and carry myself to 13yrs ago...
I will always remember everything that happen in Sentosa...

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Another day is going to pass
Suddenly don't get use to my holiday
Hahas
I should be happy as I have almost 3weeks of break
But I just don't know why I don't feel any excitement in it
Is it because I can't get to spend my breaks with my group of sisters like last time?
Or I can't get to go out everyday?
Or due to other reasons?
But I know one thing that I'm happy of
That is I get to spend some of the days with my other long lost friends...
Like my buddy or my cathay's friends
That what I'm happy off

But when comes to night
I felt a bit scared
Maybe is due to bored ba
Coz I use to spend my every night studying
And now is my break...I found that my night life was boring
Neither I can't get to go clubbing like my friends nor going supper with my friends
Hais
Others than this...what can I do?
Calling my friends to chat?
Sometime I really don't want to bother them coz they will be feeling tired after their work or spend the whole day with their own friends
But if I don't do something about my night life...
My mind will be just flowing full of his look...
It also impossible for mi to call him coz we had stop calling each others for months
Even I call...I think he also wiill not pick up...
What the point of calling...
Honestly specking...I really hope he will call mi to chat just like the first time
Even thought he called at late hour on that day
But I still enjoy the time

Anyway should stop myself thinking of him le
If really can't stop my mind...I think I will listen to song to practice my vocal or doing some sit-up to slim myself or even force myself to sleep...
Hahas...
Maybe that mi ba...
Hahas

Friday, June 17, 2011

Went to watch X-Men first class today with my long lost friend,Ri
It's been a yr that we have not see each other
And the last time we saw each other was at Marina Square
Haha
Had a lot to catch up with each other
HeeHee^^
Anyway the X-Men was great
Coming up movie was Mr Popper's penguins
Must look for someone to watch this movie with mi...
If not...I had no choice but to watch alone
;(

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Today went to Scape with HuiPing for singing
Haha
It's the first time that HuiPing go to scape
Sang a lot of song
As well as explode all my feeling by singing
Sang Happy and sad songs as well
Got Rainie,JJ,Show Luo,Twins and etc...
After which...
We went to Orchard Ion for our dinner at Xin Wang HongKong cafe
Then headed home by mrt
Hahas
On the way home...
We do a lot of chit-chat
Got relationship,fairytale and abt sec sch life
Haha
Den Huiping suddenly called mi Rapunzel
Coz I being trap at home by my aunt
But who will be the prince that will save mi
Gonna to wait for my prince to appear...

Had an enjoyable day with Wenjun
Its been 3yrs plus that we have not meet each other
Meet up at Cineleisure with Wenjun
And catch Super 8 movie at there
After which had dinner at Fish&Co
During the dinner and on the way to Dhoby Ghuat at a super nice chit chat
Really had a fun day today
Should catch up soon with him again^^

Saturday, June 11, 2011

有时我在想是不是因为我的习惯
阿公和奶奶在的时候，我重视依赖他们
可是当他们离开我的时候，我好怕我自己一个人过在每一天
所以我那份依赖move to朋友的身上

自己一个人我能逞到多久能？
一个月？一年？还是几个星期？

想哭却不能哭。。。真的好辛苦
可能我真的是神经病吧

我好希望阿公和奶奶能带我跟他们一起走
这样我就不会想他们了
朋友都说我好幸福，
因为我有阿姨疼我，虽然我妈妈不疼我
可是你们知道吗
我要的不是阿姨的爱，而是妈妈的爱
我想我再也找不到我小时候的笑容了

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Finally my nephew was back home after hospitalize for 3days
I been worry sick for him
He just only 1yrs plus and keep on staying in the hospital

After my gym exercise and breakfast at cwp
I called my aunt the moment I reached home
When I heard that he is going to come back
I was happy for him
A active young baby become a quite young baby
U know the feeling ma?
When I visit him at hospital ytd
My heart ache when I saw him in this state
Yet I can't do anything...
I finally understand when my mummy feel the pain when I enter hospital at a young age

But up till now ...
I still do not know what kind of person she is
She loves us...yet she don't cherish the time that we spend together when we are young...
Forgetting our birthday...
Dote my brothers more than mi...
I really don't understand her at all...

After all she my mummy
The one who born mi in this world
No matter what I must treat her well
Coz I really can't takes the blow to loss another family member leaving mi

Monday, June 6, 2011

After 2 months plus of non-stop studying
Today is a big day for mi
Went to Expo with fever 4hrs before my exam start just to get myself prepared
But after I saw the population keep on coming in...
I felt scary and worried...
But I still need to take my exam...
So after 3hrs 15mins of war with my fever,thinking and dizzy...
I did not finish my paper successfully as I cant find the answers for 2 of the qns which stand 60marks...
Got a feeling that I flunk my paper
:(

After having my dinner at expo with RuiMin
Headed back to CWP to buy present for Ling as today is her birthday
and a DVD for myself to reward for my effort and hard work that I had put in

Right now I was so tired
But I can't sleep
Because I need to wait for a call from my aunt
So worry for my nephew

Anyway now is holiday
And is time for mi to enjoy and get enough sleep...
Hope my depression and "bao chi zhen" will recover fast...

Last but not least
I need to thanks my aunt for taking care of mi during this period
It's a hard period for u to watch over mi almost every night just to lower down my fever temp
Thank You!!!


Doreen:
I don know you will see this post or even find my blog
But still I wish u
"Happy Belated 20th Birthday"
as 5th of June is your birthday
If can,I hope we will contact again just like before.

HuanLing:
Ling,thanks for being my BFF since the very start
Sorry for not celebrate birthday with you for today
But I hope you will like the presents that HP and mi had given to you...
"Happy 20th Birthday"
But hope you will like that