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Love is our Resistance ♥
They'll keep us apart, they won't stop breaking us down

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The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "


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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5


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Saturday, April 30, 2011

Am I doing the right thing or the wrong thing?
Forcing my brother to study is what I can do as his sister
Being eldest in the family was not an easy task for mi
I just don't want him to follow my footsteps
End up non of the poly want to accept him in future
I don want him to regret like mi
That is the reason why I keep on forcing him to study
PSLE is around the corner..yet he still feel lazy
What should I do....

Lately I'm been feeling that I going to turn crazy soon
Towards exam...I only left 37days
But I still have a lot of pending revision question...I still haven remember those theory chapters
And a lot a lot a lot of things...
Those things keeping on flashing in my mind
Keep on thinking those "you de mei de"
And "yi sheng yi gui"

All these things is it due to over stress???
Lately I've been hearing things that my aunt cant hear in the living room...
So is it I suffering from depression?
I don even dare to tell all these to my aunt and mum
Coz I accidentally heard the conversion between my aunt and mum

I heard that my aunt is worry about mi
Coz I been sleeping late and when I take my afternoon nap...
I been sleeping unconsciously...and my health is getting worst
But what I can do?
Exam coming and I still can't remember all those theory chapters
I told myself not to cry
But been crying these few days
Who can tell mi what's wrong with mi?

♥our day is full of surprise
11:41:00 PM

Friday, April 22, 2011

Suddenly feel like blogging
These few weeks been study non-stop
Coz both my mock exam and actual exam is around the corner
And my study mood is alr back

Not just studying non-stop...
I also been clearing my mind about what had happen to mi recently
I did not actually expect that I will told all those things to SL
It's not like mi...It's the first time that I alr sae all those things to her

But is true...
Even he and mi have some misunderstanding...
There's no point to make things clear...coz even if we make things clear...
We also cant go ba ck to those days that we just knew each other le
For now my only first priority was to study
Coz only study can makes mi to move on with my life..
Other than study...I will not have any other though

As for relationship...
I will leave this to fate
Coz I'm not the one who can control everything
I can control my own future but no relationship
If it's really mine...even I want to stop...also can't stop
If it's is not my mine...Even I like him...we also will not end up together
So what's the point of do all those things
Maybe I just feel tired of waiting
Waiting for a person...u really will feel restless
So why I make myself feel so tired
I can use those time to study...so why not I use it...

To mi:
Both Joey and Eve cousins are very good example
They are independent and have a bright future
So why cant I be like them...
Even I will become "bai quan"...
I also will not blame myself...
In fact...I will make my single life fill with happiness ...

Anyway....
I just happy with what I have not
Even my life are without him...I will still fill have
Coz it's part of growing up...
But I can grantee that my life will be much more better even without her....

♥our day is full of surprise
8:48:00 PM

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Anther week is going to past
Which means my study weeks is getting lesser and lesser
and the only thing that my mind have was
STRESS STRESS STRESS

Coz my poly admission was not out yet...My brother are not serious in his school work
and I only left almost a months for my revision

Sometime this stress really makes mi feel like crying
But I cant do the crying as both my aunt and mum were be worry abt mi
So what can I do to release my stress?
I really don know...

Now the days...I running out of time
I don have enough time to sleep,study and watch tv
And even I was tired...I still must force myself to study
As I don know them to look down on mi and my family members!!!

♥our day is full of surprise
7:48:00 PM

Saturday, April 9, 2011

Another week is coming...
Feel so tired now...
So many things had happened within the two months
And there's no point of mentioning...
Reflecting back what I had did for past two months
Other then preparing exam...my mind was in a huge mess
The only thing I can do was to forget and get on with my work
Maybe ......is not the one I'm waiting for
But I promise I will not put any hope on it
So what in future no one want mi...
I can be on my own....
Supporting my whole family...enjoying my single status life...and etc
That's my back up plan

Although sometime I hate myself for having such thinking
But there's nothing I can do
Human can only live time....
So if life are living with masks on it...There's no meaningful le
Coz they cant get to enjoy what's life are

Anyway ytd went down to Yishun to pay Peiying a visit
It's been a long time we nv see each other le
Had a god,fine and wonderful chit chat with her and her sister
Haha^^
So hope that she recover fast and see her soon again

♥our day is full of surprise
8:15:00 PM

Saturday, April 2, 2011

2years!It's been 2years that I never went to Bishan Temple to visit Ah Gong
Asking forgiveness was what I can do...
I don even have the courage to tell Ah Gomg everything

It's been 6 years that he had left mi alone in this world
Up till now...I still able to see the images on 2005 CNY and the day that he passed away
When I thought it was a joke but actually it's not
I cant even handle all those things at the age of 14...
Even if I was able...I cant even handle my granny passed away on the same years
I been living in guilty for 6 years and I still haven get out of it
I did not even do a part as a granddaughter...

The moment I reached there...
All those happy memories that we used to have...appearing in my mind
I wanted to cry...but I hold on to it...to let my tears roll back to my heart
All I can do was to let myself to be more happier...
So that Ah Gong will not worried about mi...

But How can I do it???
That's a questions....
I been living in sadness for past 6 years...
The impression that my friends have was I'm an emo girl...
Who will remember the happy girl that I used to have???
I already forget the smile that I used to have...
Kind of missing those time...
If I was able to stop time...I will let it stop those time before I enter into Secondary

♥our day is full of surprise
9:40:00 PM