Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Sunday, February 27, 2011

Another day had passed
I wonder what is the life of human?
How to make life interesting or full of memories?
Why is it so difficult to get peace in this world?
I really don know?
This are the questions that appear in my mind each and every day
And I'm still looking for answers!!!

Just read a few of my sister's blog
Found that they had their own goals to achieve
But how about mi?
What is my goals?
Accountant?Sales Leader?Administrative?
I kind of lost....

I use to set my own goals well and move on with it
But since when I lost my track?
Since my family situation start?O level result release?
I'm not sure...
No matter what got to move on...

Even the road was not easy...
I still must go on...
There's no way I stop and looking back...

Similar concept apply to my relationship life
我不能永远守着活想着TianHuar
So is time to forget and move on
It's difficult for mi to forget him but no matter what I still must move on
Coz I cant stuck at here forever
But that does not mean I will start a new relationship

After all these years...I felt so tired that I'm so scared to be in a relationship
Sometime I rather those idol from Taiwan/Korea to be my BF
like wuzun...KHJ...Kim Bum...etc
Because they are the ones who will not hurt mi in reality^^

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Today just discuss with my aunt about family matter
Asking her whether there's a way of turning back
She sae don know and the decision is up to my uncle

What if my uncle decision is don't want united
There family will be bits and pieces
and distance with my cousins will be further and further
What can I do to help the family???
Feeling so helpless...

Happiness was once I have when I was child
The time when all my family members are there is what I called Happiness
But how about now????
I already forget the feeling of happiness...


If that yr I did not done anything...family will not end up in this status...

Sunday, February 20, 2011

I'm so looking forward to Tuesday
Coz I will be going to Sentosa with 2 of my sisters
Haha...
Since last week I got the urge of going there
Haha
A place where contained a lot of my childhood memories with all my family members
As well as a place where TianHao hurt mi a lot...

Does that means that I have the courage to face everything?
My friends had been asking mi to go to Sentosa..
But I had rejected them coz I still don have the courage to have those sad memories that I have with TianHao at Sentosa
But how about how?
Suddenly got th eurge of going there...
HahA

Anyway...hope that Tuesday will not rain
And I going to relax and have fun with my sisters

Friday, February 18, 2011

我今天到底发生什么事？
过马路，既然不看车
满脑子里都是在想家里的事
想来想去，还是找不到答案
总觉得好烦。。。
好想睡了，永远都不要起来
我知道大人的事，我不应该管
可是我不希望这个家散
不能做什么来补救呢?
这个家弄到这个地步，都是我的错
我也不想再有失去家人的痛苦了
总觉得我好没用

Thursday, February 17, 2011

How am I going to describe my day?
I'm not sure...
I just know that I had a bad day today
Someone had treated mi like a fool
Go all the way down to compass point...yet I get nothing
I'm really a stupid and fool girl
It's the first time that I shout at her...
Izzit because I was too angry or my family problems?

Recently I really feel so tired...
Tired until I don want to wake up forever
Family situation was in a super huge mess...
And heard something that I should not hear
I'm her daughter...why she want to sae this to my relative...
If she dislike mi or hate mi that I cause my grandfather to passed away...
Den she can just tell straight to mi...
Yet she didn't
I already tried my very best to score well for O levels
But who really see my hard work???
Do u know how much I hurt after knowing all this things...
I want to get close to you...
But every time I try to get close...I'm surly get hurt
How am I going to get close...

I want to like other daughter...
Having girl talk,holding hands when shopping and etc...
But I can't...the main reason is I afraid of getting hurt...

At this point of time...I really wanted a person to be there with mi
But is impossible....Coz no one will like mi...
To mi...the word "Lonely" was the most scary word
Coz I afraid of being alone...I
I afraid of having myself in a room....
I even afraid of staying in a dark environment...
But what can I do?

People always said since I afraid of lonely
Why I don want to have bf...
And the ans that I gave of afraid...
This word can make a person feel stronger but at the same time it will make a person feel coward...
So who I am?

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

How I'm going to describe this year Valentine's Day?
Awesome? Not so really...But simply love it^^

Early in the morning had celebrate Valentine's Day with lecturer
Coz having class for today...haha
Had my lunch with Selene and Chynna...
Den headed to orchard to do a bit of window shopping....
On the way...saw a lot of couples with roses on their hand
OMG...I really cant tahan sia...

Den headed to Marina Bay to wait for Ling and train back to Woodlands
On the train...do some chit chat...
And have Mac for our dinner and do a lot chit chatting
Really had a fun day with my sisters
Haha

Couples are celebrating Valentine's Day
But I'm celebrating friendship day...
So special
At least I get to spend my day with my sisters

But really had a fun day today....
Although it's alr over...
But I still wish everyone Happy Valentine day!!!


Why I saw him...my heart beats so fast?It's the first time that my hear beats so fast?
Lol

Friday, February 11, 2011

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Next Monday is Valentine's Day
Yet I hate the coming of that day coz I don know how how I going to spend it
That day was the most difficult to spend the whole day
Why must there be Valentine's Day?
Why there's no single Valentine for the singles one?

When I was in Secondary school...I surly spend my Valentine's day in sch for basketball training or north zone basketball tournament...
I really loves those people who set all these on that day coz I will not get to see couples on the street/mrt train...

But since I graduate from secondary...I started To hate Valentine's Day
Coz I will be spending the entire day at home facing the wall if I cant find activity for that day

2009-singing K with my buddies at party world
2010-staying at home facing the wall
2011-still a questions

I really don want to spend my Valentine's Day at home for this year
But who can I find?
Just hope the time will pass faster for this year Valentine's Day

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Happy Chinese New Year to EVERYONE

Actually I hate this year CNY
coz I cant have a proper reunion dinner with my family
Plus the dishes that my parents had order are seafoods
Therefore dinner for this year is MAC
Hahas
As usual...First day go to my relative house den watch "Green Hornet" with my brothers
The nest day is to pay a visit with my relatives at my father side
The third day will be movie with sisters
Went to watch "Green Hornet 3D version" at Nex
After which headed to Have U Eaten Cafe for our dinner

As for today...
Watch AWEL 2011 at CWP
and had blagjack game at home with cousins and aunt
HahahAS
Finally I won blackjack game for this yr
Hahas
So happy that I had broke the spell as I always lost every time I play blackgame during CNY
Haha
^^