
Thursday, October 14, 2010
It have been a hard time for mi in these few days
First...Gastric had been pain continuously for 3 weeks
Surprisingly I nv make noice to ask my aunt bring mi see doctor
Second...all my old friends start to come and look for mi
Third...I only left less than 2 weeks toward my O level
Hais
How can I not to be headache?
I also don knw what happen to mi in these few days
I just don feel like laughing
Everyday my mind just flash back my past
Those happy and unhappy days I had with my family
Every time when my mind flash back...my tears just drop off automatically
How am I going to control my tears from dropping?
Up till now...I still cant find the ans...
I know that grandparents wanted mi to be a strong gal
Don always reply on others or become a cry baby
But I just cant do it from internal
But I try it on external...
Will they be angry with mi?
I think they will
Coz all my happiness is just a act in front of people and friends
Who is the real mi?
I only knw that the friendly and scare of loneliness de 娟娟 is the real me
I once enter the world of loneliness 5yrs ago
and I want to enter that scary world again
A world that is full of darkness and will lost forever
That is the reason I like to mix around
I just hope that granny and grandpa will be there for mi when I feel down or stress
Just hope that tonight I will dream of them:)
娟娟 will always miss u no matter what
♥our day is full of surprise
11:37:00 PM