Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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Mediabox

"We do not know how many years we can live,
As long as u are still in this world
You must enjoy every seconds "

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Sweetdesires

Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Aloysious AJ Amily AnQi
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Doreen Elaine Eunice HuanLing
HuiBin HuiWen Jane Jasmine
Jon KianAnn Kira LiBing
Nicholas PeiYi Priscilla QiuPing
Shermen SiewLan Wendy WenJun

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Thursday, September 30, 2010

Today is Children Day Eve
I though I will spend the day happily
But in the afternoon...received a call that spoil my day
Sometime I really think that God is so curl to mi
When I about to fulfill a wish,he will just take it easily away from me
Similar to when I about to finish a jigsaw puzzle
then I found out that I lost the most important piece

I don expect that I will live happily...
I just want my family and friends to be happy
If I can use somethings to do some exchange...
I will use all my things to exchange the happiness for my family and friends
and if can...I also hope that granny will alive again
Coz only Granny can united the family again...

Just like the song, 我寂寞寂寞就好 that Hebe had sang
The lyrics that attract mi were

我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
借来的都该还掉

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Jus know that something big is going to happen
and it will lead the family break into bits and pieces
I really don know what I can do...
No one will actually know the feeling of afraid that I have now

O level is around the corner
and yet I was so lost about everything
I even cry when I saw my granny in my dream
She want mi to stop worry about everything and back to my own self
But I told her was impossible coz I had forget what the old juanjuan was like
I even don want her to appear in my world again
I know I should not told this to granny
But from the look of my current situation...I had no choice!!!

The last thing that she told mi was
She don want mi to give up hope in relationship due to some unhappy things
I know what she means
But I cant fulfill it for her
Coz I cant take it any guys that hurt mi so deep
Tianhao and him was the last two one for mi

Maybe granny was right
I cant give up the whole forest just because of a tree
But I really don dare to give it a try anymore
And all I can say was to let it be

I will let the god to decide as my future had already been decided by god!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Today is family gathering day
So went to coffee shop to eat dinner together
Had a fun time for my dinner
Den heard from my mum that my aunt and cousins from my father side
trying to know what I'm doing now
So I decided to told my mum not to tell them

Coz they always look down on mi and bully my dad after my "yeye" passed away
and the right time to tell them my news was
the moment I receive my O level result

If I pass for English and get to poly...den I can help my mum and dad to gain back all the pride
that they had lost before...
Coz the moment I can get to poly...mean I will study poly and private together
and it prove my ability....

I don want all my aunts to look down on mi and bully my parents anymore...

Towards my O level...left 29 days more...
I don whether I can make it or not...
But I will determine to do it...
Although tml is a special day...
I don know whether I will lost all my determination...
But I just go for it...
and
I knw no matter granny at where...she will protect mi and give mi all the support....
I miss u granny

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

4年过了，我因该已经习惯了孤独的生活
可是为什么我还是很想他们呢?
每次我很想他们，我的眼泪不知不觉地掉下来
我多么的希望他们会在下一分钟出现在我的面前
可是这是不可能的事，因为他们离我而去
而我唯一能做的事是做一个开心的娟娟
可是我能做得到吗？

每当我哭的时候，他们总是会在我身边陪这我
可是现在，我却没有那个机会了
如果他们看到我现在这个样子，他们会跟我说什么呢？
会骂我吗？安慰我？还是陪这我？
我总觉得现在的我是一个没有用的人
好讨厌现在的我！！！
为什么这个世界没有时光机呢？
如果有时光机，我就可以回到那个开心幸福的日子

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Recently so many things happen in the family
I really hope that I can do something to help it
Still got 8 more days more before I need to face another situation
Sometimes I really hope that there's a car accident happen for mi
Den I might have a chance that I suffer from loss of memory
Which I can choose to live like normal teenager girls...more decent...more innocent
Or even start a brand new life and memory

Although a few years back I always joked with my friends
by saying "I'm look innocent"
But that is what I always wish for and hope for

Although I know that choosing this way is a form of running away
But I still choose it...
I do not know how long I can live or how many energy or how much I can do
But right now...I really feel lost and helpless
I know that I need to concentrate on my Olevel which is in 1months5days
But I just could not help myself

If I really loss all my memories
Then I can forget everything including
loss of beloved ones...friends...accepting the truth...hatred...etc
Although I know that after I suffer of loss of memories
My friends might even completely leave mi...
I will still do...

Because in my new life...
I will have a new start...my life might be more happier...a brand new relationship with my parents....a new character of myself....etc
So why not...
But I know is impossible de...

Right now I just hope that there's a solution for mi....

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Back to blog again
It's been weeks that I nv online and blog
hais

Last week having a high fever
Temp was 38.8...it was first time that I had a super high fever
So no choice but to put the "kool fever" and went to see doctor the next day
Although fever was gone by next day...
But I still feel very weak!!!!
Doctor told mi to take more rest and water
Hais
After which I don feel like eating
so aunt cook porridge for mi
and
Mum call mi to personally
and it takes also almost a week to bring down my fever
coz my fever temp is up down up down
Hai
First time have fever for a week
Although now is 60% recover...
But I still feel very weak....
and aunt even told mi not to study unless I'm 100% recover
Hai...no choice but to listen...

So time I really enjoy the feeling of sick
Coz see my aunt busy is consider happiness
But now I feel sick at the wrong timing
Don knw why every time I feeling sick at the prelim period
Cousin AJ told mi is the god giving mi a warning to rest
Den I told him...God will not be so good
HaHA

Now..I just hope I can recover by sat
Den I can get back to work
Time is running out....

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Hungry Ghost Festival is over
I should be happy coz I safe and sound
But I'm not...coz I cant get to see my grandpa within the month
I really miss him,I really want to tell Cousin AJ abt it
But I choose to put it into my heart...coz I knw AJ will told mi the same thing
Sometime I really feel like crying...
Although I knw that crying will not help but that is the only way for mi to throw out everything

Today went to RP to study with Huiping and Selene
We had a happy time at there
But when I abt to leave...my mood was not right
I just don not what's bother mi
That moment I really want to cry
But I hold it until I saw BoyBoy
Now he is the only person to cheer mi up le
Thanks BoyBoy

Friday, September 3, 2010

I should consider ytd ba...
Coz it alr past 12 le
Went to CWP with my aunt
Coz she want to buy a new phone
Den when we about to go to level 1
Saw my 2nd aunt and uncle...
It has been more than 10yrs that I never saw them
I remember when I was very very young...
She dote mi a lot and will always keep my day happy
But aft the 10yrs that we have not see each other....
Everything has change....both of us cant recognize each other
And her health was not as healthy as before
I really scare she will end up like y grandfather...
Back to the topic....
She treat us to eat SuShi at B1
And we had happy time spending with each other...
We share our joy and sadness for 3hrs...
Aft which my aunt and mi need to go home
while my 2nd aunt and uncle continue to have their lunch

The most happy time will always pass very fast
I really hope there a 2nd time
So is there any possible for mi to have the big family again?

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Ytd was Teacher's Day Celebration
Hence...I went to Fuchun to visit my teachers
But the moment I reach the sch...
I cant enter...and Mrs Wong came out to chase us away
WTH...
Don knw why the sch need to set time for us to go in
From 11am change to 11.15am den change to 12pm
Hais

That is way...I leave without seeing my teachers
Meet huiping at woodlands platform
and went to orchard togethers
At 1pm...Selene join us
And we go KBOX to have our singing session for 4hours
^^
Aft the KBOX
we went to have our dinner at
Xin Wang (orchard ion outlet)
The food was quite ok
and Den Home sweet home

It is a wonderful and relax day for us