Biography

The name is Jan. I was borned in the season of winter with the age of 20. I'm similar to Rapunzel that was being kept at Woodlands areas waiting for my prince to rescue mi but up till now I still haven't meet one. I'm in love with Kim Hyun Joong, Jang Keun Suk and Lee Hong Gi . And, abit of Derrick Hoh. They're famous, like obviously you'll know who they are. I'm a die-hard fan of White, Black and Purple. Not much of Pink. Television, Music and Dramas are my three best friends, they're always by my side whenever I need them. My greatest enemies are Enzyme, Backstabber, Hypocrite and latecomers. I hate them alot. World would be such better place without them all. To me, Dreams are always sweet like eating a desserts. But Reality is like playing an adventure games that need to go through every level for your entire life.

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Did I hear someone said "sing" or "watch"?

Score well for all my CAT papers
Slim down
Iphone 3GS
Able to wear skirts/dresses
Beloved ones to be happy
Wonderful 20th Birthday
Iphone 5

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Sunday, August 15, 2010

Another blog session from mi
Instead of going to Orchard...I went to Marina Bay Sand with my bro
Coz he want to change his YOG card
The place was crowded due to the opening ceremony
But this journey makes mi feel very relax and my mind jus went empty
Izzit due to the walking journey or due to the urge of entering the casino
Every time when my parents were unhappy...they were surely enter the casino
Although they know that they were loss money....but they still enter
Now I finally knw the reason le....

These nights always cant fall into sleep
Keep on recalling back my past 12 yrs
Like every thing was predetermine(zhu ding)
I can honestly said...
Since pri 1 I start to bully people coz I can exchange my mum care
if I caught by teachers...
But I didn't....coz everything is not what I plan

Then I start to steal money
Eventually I caught my parents attention...
They show my care by asking me a lot of questions
I like that feeling...but is only temp...
Aft which I continue to do it...
But these time round is not care
But hate....they hate mi and blame my aunt
They even want to go Girls' home
But my aunt save mi
That is the reason I was close to my aunt

Coz of these...the distance between my mum and mi
is more further...
But I nv give out....eventually god give mi a chance
that is my eye ball...
That is the time I feel a lot of warm and care from her
And even last very long....until sec 2

Secondary 2 period was the worse year that I had
Evey thing was exchange from my precious things
and I even caused my big family break into bit and pieces
And lost 2 of my grandparents at the same time
Is these call bao ying or what?

Since young what I get...was the exchange from my precious things
And all I get was nothing....

To mi...
There is not different between my past and now
God is using my skin and friendship to exchange for my computer and warmth from my parents

AJ was right
If a person want something...
God will give but in exchange with sometThing precious

To me...
My life has alr determine by god
I was jus like a slave....going according what he has plan for mi
If I zhu ding have friendship...I will have it
But if I zhu ding being alone
No matter how hard that I try to fight for...I will end up loss the war...
Coz I kwow that I can fight god with the strength that I have

I write these not because
I want tong qing
Coz I knw there will be no one view my blog
Is because these had been in my heart for more than 10yrs le
And is time to release...

Maybe because AJ and mi grow up together since we are baby
Play and share things together....he was 100% right
For the past 12 yrs...I been putting all these in my heart
Even my friends knw....they only knw a small part of pieces
As what I written there is only 1/4 of it
The rest of it can written it as a book
I think in these world only my grandparents and AJ know my childhood
Coz no matter how hard I try...I will get what I want
and the only way is to 1-1 exchange

To me
My blog was my personal diary
Coz no one will view my blog and is the best way to write all my feeling

Some time I really envy my friends
What they have...is I don have....family warmth
Not coz I never work hard...is I don want to exchange
I cant possible to exchange everything with what I can
as everything is important to mi

But now I finally know
Whether to exchange or not is not my decision
....is God that will decide...

Although Oct wedding was what I was excited about and looking forward
I think I can drop the idea le
Coz is impossible